End of a black hole.

How does the black hole ends? How does anything with so much power dies what happens to it after its end and what happens to everything it so absorbed? As per most of speculation or theories in the end black holes just evaporates and there is nothing left after it. As a person from real world its bit hard to digest as in my life I have never seen or imagined anything completely evaporates without a trace left.
Yeah I am no physicist. But that doesn’t stop me from questioning what science journals ask me to believe. Complete evaporation of black holes at its death is also one question I have in my mind and I certainly believe it is nearly impossible to evaporate anything without an even single trace. So when it does end what happen to all the matter it did absorb during its life time?
As we know there is less space required in case elements are smaller as more well packed and free space requirement is less.

If elements the smaller they will be much more well packed thus gap in between will be less. So when one star does end up with fuel due to all the high energy present in the core of star it keep becoming smaller elements thus able to get much more well packed and occupy less space. Thus when star dies and runs out of fuel the inner elements the elements which are already divided will start reducing the size of the star to real small object. Which have the same mass of the star but very well packed thus extremely small in size. Leading to formation of black hole. If the size of star isnt big enough it will need be able to become black hole but just pulsur as the elements will not be crushed to such a small level that they can become black hole.
We all know black holes gravitational pull is more the speed of light thus making impossible for light to escape from it making them really hard to detect. And if any object that comes near black hole and become subject of its gravitational pull. At certain point it will reach the speed of light and even surpass it as it is getting absorbed by the black hole. With so much gravitational pull the every object that comes near black hole starts getting stretched and at certain point the with the amount of energy it is getting pulled it will reach ionization energy thus electron will break free from the surface ans when it does it it will release some amount of energy. As the elements still is trying to get closer it will keep further getting divided into smaller elements from atom to further smaller quantam elements. Such as hig boson or even further smaller elements depends completely on size of Black hole and its gravitational pull. Which helps any star or object to merge into black hole without effecting its size to a large scale. Also when the elements are getting pulled every time an element is divided into smaller element it releases the huge amount of energy. Resulting into radiation burst from the black holes. But that only happens when black hole itself has absorbed too much of energy in itself and with this gravitational pull even energy gets pulled towards the surface.
Now with this established the black hole does contain insane amount of energy in it. Object of gravational pull disintegrate itself into smaller elements much smaller than just Hydrogen even small the elements which we have not yet discovered as the amount of energy in the black hole is insanely high which keep on disintegrating the molecule into smaller and smaller thus converting the star into pure black hole surface very well packed. And as does the black hole has absorbed enough number of stars and has reached its limit it cannot further hold all & due to its own gravitation pull it keeps crumbiling to smaller size over time due to pull of its own as well as the energy which has been trapped due to its gravitational pull surronds it putting equal pressure on the black hole surface to crumble more into itself it evaporates and as it evaporates all the enrgy which was trapped due to high gravational pull becomes free and explodes.
Releasing all the energy it once absorbed which spread across the region with more than speed of light and then it start losing the energy the energy further start transforming itself back into mass or matter. Leading it into formation of new objects which may be stars planets, asteroids may be even life.
If our universe has black hole in the centre as my previous article this may be very process explaining the expanding and contracting universe further leading to formation of whole new Universe.

Mangtein hain muqadar zindgi ka
Tu ek baar mujhe raah dikhata ja
Chahe tu chod dena mujhe bewafa hoke
Par ek baar toh aas dilate ja

Mangtein hain muqadar zindgi ka
Tu ek baar mujhe raah dikhata ja
Mana ki main tere khuda ka nahi
Par tu is kafir ko mohabaat toh sikhata ja
Kuch he paal ki baaki yeh zindgi meri
marne se pehle jeena toh sikhta ja

Mangtein hain muqadar zindgi ka
Tu ek baar mujhe raah dikhata ja

Fate of life is what i ask for
kindly show me the path for my destiny
you can than betray me and leave me
but at least give me hope

Fate of life is what i ask for
kindly show me the path for my destiny
i know i do not belong to your god
but teach this infidel to love
i don not have much time left in life
at least teach me how to live before death

Yeh gila hum jis khuda se karte hain
woh khuda bhi kisi shayer ne banaeya hoga
intezaar mein tere jo hum itna jalte hain
us shayaer ko bhi kisi ki mohabbat na jaleya hoga.

the god to whom i cry to for my suffering
must have been made by some poet
in wait of my love as i burn
must have felt the agony

Bad effects of Good Kids.

There is an old saying “too much of anything is bad”. Even good kids have side effects more on the side than on themselves. Quite opposite to believe successful people only inspire us I know many of us will be judging me by now but don’t write me off just yet.
This may sound like more of my personal life than an article. I am going to start with a story of young boy name kaku, he was black sheep of a family. Family that was filled with genius people highly intelligent and very intellectual but he was not. Not even one these qualities he was blessed with. He wasn’t much into studies & even good manners were not part of his charm he was angry, stubborn and had no concentration at all easy to say he was no light of the house.
Which made life bit bitter and tough for him especially looking around see everyone else is perfect, perfection the society requires. Easier to say he was bit of an eyesore. And for 8 year old that bit too much to handle so he had to choose to either continue to be an eyesore or change the way he is and follow someone as mentor.
It would have been much easier if he chose the first option and be the way he was though I don’t know how his future would have turned out to be as I didn’t get to see that part in my life. Other option is to live the way as people expects you to live. Now it easier said than done especially if you are part of family who are all masters of their fields.
Kid who recently decided to become a good kid it can be bit overwhelming as they may lack the very skills which are required to be one of those perfect kids. They aren’t as brainy or as smart as others even if they were they would not know how to use this skill as this is not their signature skill it is one part of their nature that they have never used and still despise the idea of being perfect kid in their head somewhere and though he is trying to change but as they say “People never change”.
Now when people see you trying without even realizing they get a hope you are good child now and they start comparing normal kids with perfect kids. And Perfect kids set standards for you. Everything they do is they do with perfection, which becomes quite a challenge for the kids who follow them as their shadows. In cases like these it becomes more of a frustration than an inspiration.
While tailing this perfection people often lose their own passions their own skills. As kids try to modelize themselves they end up losing their own original shape becoming nothing more than copy cats. Also forgetting this fact these imperfections makes us what we really are. We were never really intended to be perfect we were supposed to be imperfect to begin so we can fill the loop holes of others by being ourselves but this continuous comparison made us what we are not.
It’s fascinating to see how easily people influence us. No wonder we still live in herds. And we follow people so we get accepted by society. Yet we also think we are different we are different from this world. Little did we know the difference we are so proud of was lost long ago while we were so busy being good.

The Very fear I live in.

We shouldn’t be scared “Scared of anything”. No I am not supporting fear here or to be afraid “even being chicken” but just the fear itself. Fear is the very component we are made off. Every one of us suffered from some sort of fear even the Harry Potter who suffered from fear of fear itself.
But is fear really that bad for us. In experience it has always been helpful in keeping us sane and making better choices been kind of guide for us the very same way God has been. Fear has a very strong control on our minds and actions but not that good on thoughts but these thoughts help us in instill the very fear in us. Randomness and our imagination are often the reason we fear something.
But these imaginations also help us to find all the possible open paths. Also prepare us for all the possible endings. On a personal experience fear has been the reason for me being crazy yet sane. If you have no fear you will not realize when you lose your control but if we are bit afraid we go to our very end and try to see if we are still safe. This very fear helps us find our limitations and the threshold to a level we can push ourselves too.
People who drive fast and those who are maniac this is the line that we can draw to judge if we is maniac or he just drives fast. As those who drives fast are also bit afraid of it that fear keeps them safe and in control as they know if they push too far they might lose control. And those who completely let go of all the fears turn into maniac and more often than not have bitter endings.
Yeah too much of these limitations aren’t healthy in any prospect. As if the belt is too tight one can’t even breathe. Fear defines the limitations for one if you make the place to small there is no place to move there is no place left too imagine as we can only imagine as much as we have space for imagination. If our fears build too many walls then you can’t imagine all.
As old people say too much of everything is bad. So fear is not different if you are too afraid you fail to move forward and if you are not afraid you won’t be able to reach where you wanted to begin with.

5% more...

5% more is all I ask, what would have happened if I had 5% more? How much life would have changed, how different of person I would have been now? Would I have been in the same state as I am now? So many questions pop up in mind. And a fear too what if still nothing would changed than I guess I would have believed in fate or more probably asked for 5% more.
That 5% more may have helped me reached my goals and dreams and yeah, it would have helped me figure out my dreams and my goals. Probably even controls these random thoughts I end up writing too often nowadays. With my current capabilities I just live my life as it comes often struggling with every part of it. And Struggle to make it better or something that makes me think it might feel better.
But no matter how much of I struggle I still can’t draw a picture of my future or my life not of future not even of present. Not very sure how many of us can draw the picture what our life should be like. Yeah I know I always wanted to live where it snows and have a house at beach but can I picture myself living there No, I can’t even imagine me being happy there just because I once wanted to live like that. And I am sure not planning for that future. I hope if I have 5% more I would have been able to figure out.
Also hope with that 5% more I fill the voids of life and even made me a probably a better person, I always been bit of rebel and narrow minded, selfish, often less caring as others always want me to be. The idea of living for others doesn’t really find its house in my head home. I hope I would become more considerate about others or may be not frankly I don’t think I would be able to care even after that. But I do hope I understand people bit more.
Even after saying so much I still can’t stop imagining how much I would have changed with that 5% more. Would I have gotten my degree without arrears, would I have been better student? My IQ was it not enough for this worlds smooth ride. Or I was never really able to associate with everything around me. May be with that 5% people I would have able to associate bit more.
My craving for 5% more is same as my craving for time machine. If I could just get that I would have fixed so many things, may have saved my failed love, and may have saved myself from failing again and again in same subject and may have made my life bit more perfect. I can add so many may’s to this list of how much of it might have changed.
It certainly shows my desire it to change even my lethargic nature. Also a false hope I might have fixed my all flaws if I have 5% more but If I have no flaw than I wouldn’t be human this 5% keeps me human keep me what I am also is the reason I have this desire to have 5% more.

few words...

hai ye chand ki laali humein yeh ehsaas dilati hai
humein abhi bhi unki yaad aati hai
jinki baatein humein har pal hasaati thi,,
naa jaane unhee ki yaad ab itna kyoon rulati hai...

hai yeh chand ki laali humein ehsaas dilati hai..
yeh duniya bhi ab humein tanhayee mehsoos karati hai
pa kar bhi jo kho diya tujhko
ab to mohbaat bhi bhi humein raas na aati hai

often this redness of this moon makes me feel
i still miss u at times
who made me smile with her every word
why now her memory makes me cry

often this redness of this moon makes me feel
this world now makes me feel alone
even after finding you, i lost you
now even love doesn't suit me

work in progress...